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Uphill struggle

Its always harder to go uphill.

Mart De Haan wrote about pride in RBC's monthly 'Been Thinking About' columns and I think these few ones he wrote applies to me :

Sulking Pride The pride that keeps us from asking others for help can also cause us to sulk when others are not “there for us.”

Pious Pride The pride that causes us to be prayerless in our personal life can also prompt us to pray with crowd-pleasing eloquence in public settings.

Fearful Pride The ego that causes us to be overly competitive on some occasions can also keep us from trying at all in other situations. Sometimes pride makes us willing to win at the expense of others. Sometimes it causes us to avoid the embarrassment of possible failure.

Its even harder now to express my feelings or thoughts to anyone. Friends come, friends go. Sure, we all need to run to God. Broken relationships, bonds - what is loyalty these days.I may be just the naive one around. I'm feeling more disconnected with people than ever since things are changing. Sometimes, I feel I no longer have the passion I used to have for that vision that everyone else is in.

I havent cried for the longest time. Maybe I'm depressed. Or homo changes. Ahh crap. Whatever...TIRED>

posted by gloomy @ 10:11 AM