no more

*Sigh* letting out air...

Long day. Many thoughts. But now all fade into the dark rainy night...

For a moment, I really cant accept the fact how people are responding to certain things. In some way it seems like pushing away certain facts. And I also see while trying to stand up for certain things, it does become to some point pushing blame & fingerpointing.

I guess, I see myself as part of that vicious cycle as well.

Learning, how to put forth words in speech, text into language that communicates my heart & thoughts to others. In the right loving manner.

Grace...

I'm not perfect.. but He is.

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To many people, dying to oneself seems like a tall call. "Its so hard... I cant give this up... How can I die to myself"?

Someone in cell shared during sharing ... dying to oneself is really to give up one's rights to things they have/own. Example like time for TV, time for other stuff etc... sacrificing the time and give it to God - be it time communicating with Him or using the time doing His things.

I used to be quite resistant of surrending my rights. Its as if although I'm deprive of my privilage of being human and enjoying things. Last few weeks really kinda move me to this zone where I have to trust God, that I have to understand while I plan, while there are goals & dreams I can have - ultimately He's the one guiding me the steps. Proverbs 6:9 really reminded me a lot about this... and even things around me. And I believe this is so for the rest of us...

Not nice man.. to be shaken up at this rate. But then... its a journey!

Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and all these shall be added to you.

And we seek, not for those things that shall be added to us - rather, we seek His Kingdom because we cant help but to focus on Him, to take those things we do as a worship & sacrifice to Him.

Rest in Him....

posted by gloomy @ 2:16 AM