no more

well..

there isnt much for me to say.

everytime, anything and everything is my fault. either the less spritual one or not submissive to God and etc.

my fault, my fault, my fault...

To a close friend - why do you always think its about you? Its not the first time Im mentioning that it wasnt about you only. And you take this whole issue wholesale and full stop without even confronting to me face to face?
If that's how much you treasure a friendship, a friend ...
You dont even know what's going on and you start making up your mind on things, and base it on the writings on my blog.
And you thing any thing negative i say about people is directed at you? I'm having issues now with a lot of things in the past with people and all, I wrote that in respond to a lot of things that those few people did to me.
Either you face up to it by talking to me IN PERSON or you dont at all. If you want to know if I have any issues with you, then trash it out with me? Pls - its fine if you want to leave me alone. I do need the peace. But to the extend youre doing this based on my blog?
I do have some issues with you which I have trash out with you from time to time when I think its approriate to for me to speak up in fear of saying something unloving. so why do this to me?

I leave it to you to rationalise...
I'm honestly sorry if the post meant anything personal to you, but I'm writing how I feel towards things.
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Basically I'm in a rut now. Not because of a guy. Not because of lonelines. Not because of the usual suspects.
Its the fact that past hurts are now taunting me and I'm trying to deal with them. I'm questioning a lot of things and searching for the answers.

Wisdom.... wisdom...

posted by gloomy @ 1:43 AM