no more

Its one of those nights...

Nights that you wish would pass by quickly.

Today I chose to stay in the office to finish up work. Brain dead and yet work is mounting up.

I wish I could forget him - I thought I did. Maybe I'm just feeling the lonliness and that the festive season is around the corner. Everything surfaced up again. During the cell, the video speaker was saying that you know you are healed when a memory is no longer a pain. I think I'm in the waiting hall of moving from healing to healed. Seems like some days its not that painful - but on certain days I can get so emotional with those memories...

Let it fade... maybe these memories fade to grey is better... better to leave it grey.

Christmas - alone. I know - it has nothing to do with me during Christmas. Of course Christmas is to celebrate the arrival of Jesus... and yet Christmas always has this thing like families and loved ones are together in the cold season...

I'm not sure of myself at the moment. I gues I'm probably not ready for someone else... and yes this whole crush thing is really crap. Maybe I'm just scared to be alone and unattended to.
Maybe this is the season of solitude...

Observation : Escapism has to be the highest form of disillusionment. Not wanting to face up reality, thinking that by not thinking about those problems life can be more free and happier. Such a killer.

Hai. Still envy people around me.

Thinking too much... just want to be buried with work work work. Not that it will make me happier... just to take things off my mind at least for 8hrs out of 12hours of 24hours...

posted by gloomy @ 2:04 AM