no more

I give up

Something happened today.

Names cannot be mentioned.

All I can say - I really give up on someone. No matter how I tell, or try to explain in the simplest and political right manner, and even the best temper I could be in, yet somehow it doesnt get through.

Ever.

I cannot understand why. And everytime its me - the one who's more reactive and emotional.
Well that's because you never understand something call respect and understanding of others. You do not even know how to understand someone else. You only wanted to hear what you want to hear, what you want others to hear. Anything else not in that dicitionary of yours is conviently filtered out, and the first and foremost thing you want others to do is to hear you out first. And I dont really care if some other people actually accept the way you handle them. Either they are just trying to be nice, or they dont know how to tell you about this flaw.

And all I tried to do was a simple conversation. Thats all.

And I am not a newbie. And dont talk as if you know human relations and everything else.

And I dont really care if that person actually read this post. Because I dont think that person even knows I have one.

I have nothing against you or hate you. But I simply have no respect for you after such a long time.

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Man's words are flick. In marketing/advertising terms - never promise what you cannot deliver.
Its the same theory.
While I am not hurt (not quite really) about what happened, yet I feel so torn inside. I feel so upset. How I would really just want someone to understand me and befriend me.
How I am unable to convey to that person there's someone wrong with the way that person is going.
How I am unable to express the kind of regret that there are just some instance where a friendship is unlikely to be built again - without that common understand and interest in doing so.

I give up.

And dont ask who this is. Even if you do, I wont say.

posted by gloomy @ 11:26 PM