I have so many thoughts and feelings - by the time I do write them now, its gonna gone. Maybe I'm bonkers in the morning.
I've been bottling up too many things and concerns that are out of my control in the last few months. Made too many choices which lead me to no where.
I'm back to the drawing board. Its all over again. Hopefully this time lesson learnt..
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It hurts so much to know somethings, but yet I cant do anything to help. Not my burden to carry, but yet its so overwhelming at times. I wish to get some things resolved. I just dont know how.
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I know I'm this >>http://www.desiringgod.org/library/sermons/94/112094.html
Learning to cross over the other side... by His grace...
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I really wish I had more opportunties to go hang out with people. Most people would probably think I'm busy.
Busy is just my cover at many times for the pain and bitterness I felt for the last 3 years. I'm afraid, insecure - because pride is in the way. I dont seek the attention, yet my heart seeks out for it. Its like the ring - it seeks out the deepest desire to conquer and rule (dark side). My dad was right that I am contentious.
I need to break this. I need to move. I need to take charge of my life, and take this power before Him...
posted by gloomy @ 4:50 AM
3 Comments:
hang in there my dear. i'm doing no better than what u r going thru. let's go thru this together... :)
=] Draw close to Him, and allow Him to work in your life...
haha yes i know. i have been drawing close to the Lord this whole period of time. a godly woman i will be and u will be too! *BEARY HUG*
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