no more

ahh.. the bright morning star...

Christmas is over...

Here comes year 2006!

Its gonna be interesting... not that 2005 wasnt. Somehow the season is changing...

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I'm reminded that I've wasted 3-6 years of my life. I thought I knew it all, and yet all that I know couldnt help me in times of trouble. The pains of broken relationships (bgr, with people) keeps repeating itself.

Finally woken up and realise, all the battles fought has nothing to do with others. It was a internal war I had and was fighting. Its not even a psychological thing that I kept repeating to myself "its me its me its me".

Last 3 months got me reflecting. My idea of job, career, money, friends, family, fear, insecurity, wants and needs.
All is habel, when its under the sun. Meaningless toil. Strife, pain, contentious - nothing is new.
All is precious and a blessing - when life is under God. Every moment given is a blessing from above.
Its so early to be suck into the hurriciane in the world. All it takes is a small compromise. A small thinking that "its okay, I'll just blend in with them" or "it's okay, just this time".
Snowballed into something extremely huge.

At some point of time, I couldnt even sing to "Blessed Be Your Name', echoing Job's cry and declaration to God. I questioned myself for the longest time if He took it all away, can I still say Blessed Be Your Name?
It got stuck to me, and still is.

Learning to let go of a lot of things in life... there's still so much go to work on!

And its still a long way to go...

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Its good for the spirit to be praising God all day... and good decent sleep!

Off to bed... suddenly was humming to this worship song I used to sing frequently as a young believer in Christ...

Stand Up And Give Him The Praise

(chorus)
Am Dm Em
who is like the Lord there is no one
Am Dm Em
who is like the Lord He is strong and mighty
Am Dm Em
who is like the Lord He is worthy
F G Am G Am
Stand up and give Him the praise

(verse)
Dm Am
Praise the Lord, Praise the Lord
E Am G/B Am/C
Our God is worthy of glory
C#m7 Dm Am
from the rising of the sun, to its going down
F E
the name of the Lord is to be praised

(bridge)
G Am G Am G Am G
Stand up and praise Him and give Him the glory
G Am G Am G Am G
Stand up and praise Him and give Him the glory
G Am G Am G Am G
Stand up and praise Him and give Him the glory
F E D E
Our God is worthy of praise
©Integrty's Hosanna! Music 1995
Words and Music by Lynn DeShazo

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posted by gloomy @ 12:27 AM